Hello Moms~ new here is my intro/situation

Ran out of room in post. My fam has been my biggest help and also my s/o so Im not totally alone on this. I also go to counseling. But of course having to deal with so much I have break downs every now and then and I came on here to find a place to talk and vent.

ahhh it feels so good to hear someone vent. I could use a person to vent to too. I am in a place of fear of thinking things are all going to be bad with my sons father. He is an asshole sometimes. I can't even take how much i have done to try and get him to like me. Now, i have to stop myself, because i don't even know if that is the reality of it, or if i am just young and naive, or if i have made problems up. That is what my breakdowns are like. I am afraid he is going to leave our lives forever and that i need to do things for him so he doesn't leave us and go somewhere else. He says he will always be here and if i need him to call him and he will be there as quick as he can. But when he says things like I was not ready for a child, or that I am not his ideal girl, I want to cry. I was so lost that maybe no i can become his ideal girl if i change back into myself, whoever that is, and maybe i won't be so different from him. All i can think about is him. And, to top it all off, i don't get out of the house to ever hang out so i don't see or hear from any of my friends except for my sister in law, some family that stops by, and my boyfriend who i think i am going to break up with all the time but can't do it because he would be so broken up about it and hurt. I blame myself for being with him because i think it made it so I can't be with my sons father. My sons father is making an effort to come to appointments, asks about how he is doing, and all i can do is be pissed off at him for any little thing he does. Even when i am in a good mood, later i get pissed off i was in such a good mood to him and ohhhhpppp maybe i was not myself again. But GOOOOOOOODDD what the hell am i supposed to do if i never feel like myself.

I hope the man you are with right now is someone who makes you completely happy. Not that mine doesn't, it's just not right feeling for me. He will be your biggest supporter and male friend right now. :) Here's to looking up!

Im feel you. when i was with the father of my kids he made me feel like crap no matter how much i tried to be good for him. it finally came to the point where i was just so miserable that i didnt want to go home and deal with him at all. so when i broke it off i definantly was prepared just because i accepted that it wasnt going to work between us. i tried to make good relationship between him and kids but he just doesnt care enough to put in his own effort to do it himself so i just let it go. cant make someone do anything. id would say you just need to accept it aint working with babydad and move on for your own sake. its not right for him to say those things to you bout not being ready mom or ideal girlfriend. to make it easier on yourself just treat your relationship with babydad as a business. talk bout kids and deal with each other for kids sake and thats all. this help me move on from how much an asshole the father of my kids was to me. i just didnt sit there & take his abuse i stood up for myself

I am very blessed the guy i am with now is very good to me and kids. he truely loves us and takes care of us and he literally is the best guy i couldever have. course we have our problems but we always work through it. we want the same things so it works for us. I hope it gets better for you. i understand being lost what helps me is staying busy taking care of family and just thinking bout what good i have in life and what good oppurtunities i have as well.